[	Tags	|	me, my single life, philly	]
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[	Current Music	|	Raphael Saddiq	]

The French tourist thing died down, was resurrected, was breathed fresh life into, even walked with a spring in its step, but all only to finally die down again. For good this time. We had been talking almost everyday and he even came down to Singapore to spend time with me a couple of weeks back, and I realised that I liked him more than I thought I did. But in our brief talk about the subject, I realised there was absolutely no future in this "relationship". After mulling over things, my recent history, I came to a decision that I needed to nip this thing in the bud. Before I somehow ended up getting hurt again. So I told him that no hard feelings, but this had to stop. It's hard, and I miss him, but if it feels like a bummer now, it would be worse in a couple of months. And I just do not have the strength for yet another failed attempt at having a lasting relationship, not when I'm not 100% recovered from the previous one.

Maybe it is the Asian in me, or the age, or just my disposition in life - whatever it is I can't reel in my feelings. I'm all or nothing; I can either do one-nighters or a full-blown I'm-madly-in-love-with-you-and-hopefully-will-spend-the-rest-of-my-life-with-you thing. I am not lookign to get married anytime soon, but I think I have reached that stage where I feel I want a loving long-term relationship that has potential to endure through the future.

Having gotten to that stage, and then realising I'm very likely not going to even have a single interesting date till the time I leave Singapore, has been hard. I really meant it when I said I am very happy with my life on a day-to-day basis - I smile, I laugh, I truly enjoy my moments and what they bring - but sometimes it hits me that for at least the next 6 months to a year, I'm not even going to have a date I'm excited about. And that ... blows.

Compounding that is a fact that I still miss Philly and know there's nothing I can do about that for at least a year. The earliest I can realistically get back to Philly would be summer 2010, being a foreigner and all. I honestly don't know what avenues I can explore for getting a job and moving back to Philly within the year. That's sorta left me feeling down, too.

In sum: I'm happy, I'm okay, but...

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On this last day of 2008, a post to remind myself that:

1. I am generally happy;

2. I have a job I love to do;

3. It's a stable job;

4. I have stable, loving, decent family;

5. A terrific set of friends;

6. A good boss & excellent colleagues;

7. General health & income-earning potential.

Things could be a lot worse.

Happy New Year to everyone!
 

[	Tags	|	me, my dating woes, work	]
[	Current Location	|	Office	]
[	Current Mood	|	blah	]

As in slow, not the other exciting meaning. I've been lethargic about posting on LJ, but I've noticed that the last couple of months have been lethargic for most of my F-List-ers, too. This has somehow spurred me to do a post. After all, if the bar is set low, there are no expectations, right?

The Oktoberfest party was a smashing success. People left my place either very full of food or full of alcohol. And definitely full of smiles. I'm now looking firmly forward to the next big bash, most likely for Halloween.

Last friday night, I proceeded to get hammered. Which should not have been surprising given that i started drinking around 5.30pm and did not stop till about 1am. A cocktail, beer, a whole bottle of Riesling, 2 glasses of chardonnay, and one bottle of Heineken to top it all off. And not a lot of food in all of it. I was apparently very very entertaining and I remember laughing a lot. So I guess the evening was a success.

I am awaiting the PA bar results this week; it's been scheduled for friday. So I'm either gonna be roaring drunk from celebrating or from depression. The less said on this topic, the better. Given my history.

Boys are disappointing me like there's no tomorrow. There was a sudden spike of activities about a month or so back, where my love stock seemed quite up. But woefully, my love life has now gone the way of the global financial markets. I'd like to know if there's a bailout plan for me in the pipeline cos, let me tell you, I need some serious salvaging. There was a French tourist with whom things seemed to be going well. He came down here again to meet me and talk about "things". The trip did not go well. Between his increasingly horrible case of jetlag and my PMS-ing, both of us were confused. He's due to come down to S'pore again next week, but this time for a vacay to Malaysia & Laos with his friend. I don't know what's going to happen then. I like this bloke a fair bit and I'm quite disappointed that what had looked sorta promising before is now near-comatose. Next week will see either the pulling of the plug or resuscitation of our "relationship".

There was another boy in the picture, kind of. He's in my area and we had lunch once, a coupla months before the bar. I was pretty interested in him and kinda excited about it, because I rarely find any Singaporeans attractive in every way. But I didn't know if he was even remotely interested in me. After that lunch, I came away a little less interested in him and still no clue as to how he felt about me. After the bar, I tried asking him to lunch... and I'm still waiting for an answer. Doesn't bode well, does it. So yea, kinda feeling the stings of rejection.

Aside from that, there's work, which is chugging along. I was feeling a tad uninspired by it, which I did not like, so i volunteered to draft a court submission. It's due in 2 weeks, so I now have something to keep me engaged for a bit.

Well, that's me in a rather-big-nutshell. How are things with the rest of ya?

My beloved readers, 

The sporadic and mostly brief, posts are here to stay temporarily. 

1. Work has been crazy the last few weeks, as has my social life. Neither of my choosing.

august_baby27

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Yes, I had gone to Bangkok the last couple of days. Just got back, a tad sleep-deprived, but very satisfied with my trip. It's been a long long time since I've gone on a holiday to another country, and done whatever I like. It was a fabulous trip. Ok, a bit tired now, more later.

I just got back from running 5.6k for the JPMorgan Chase Corporate Challenge! SO psyched! I ran the whole way, which is a big achievement for me because I haven't run once in the last year! Woo hoo!!